November 2nd
He ripped out the only thing that I had left. He took it and threw it out in the street, hoping for someone to run over what I treasured so much. No, it was not a necklace with a heart on it. Not the wedding ring I also treasured. He threw out my heart. He cut me open, hoping to make everything better for himself; but he can't get everything he wants. He can't get the house I paid off with my salary, or the neon green convertible that held everything I loved. It may not seem right but I don't always play sweetly.
December 1st
This may be the worst possible thing to do to someone, but I murdered my own ex- husband. He had it coming. When the police found out, all they had as a suspect was me. I ran in for some questions, already having the waterworks turned on. There was no question after deliberating that I had not killed my husband. ( Excuse me, ex- husband) At least, that is what the police thought. I may be coming to his memorial and burying; but when everyone is retreating into the church for the dinner I set up, I might just spit in his grave.
January 2nd
New Years went by so fast. I made resolutions, of course who wouldn't. I said I would visit my mother more often. Read one book once a month, and last but not least try not to use all of my husbands money up in one day. People who think I murdered my husband, which I did, can think what they want. I will never be convicted..............
Goodnight....... Dear
Wintergirls Essay
While the cold captures you in it's bonny hand and the smells start to tempt you with unwanted scents, you remember the feeling of being full. The days when eating a sandwich didn't make you throw up. While eating at the family table you wouldn't have to bring up a topic that would bring everything into chaos; just so you could slip a couple pieces of meat into your napkin and feed them to the dog. In the book" Wintergirls" by Laurie Halse Anderson we meet a girl with eating disorders. In the book we learn what death and family problems can do to a girls life.
When someone dies, funerals are arranged and black dresses are brought out from the deep burrows of your closet. Normally Grandma's and Grandpa's are in the coffin looking peaceful and perfect. But, erase the whole picture from your mind . Erase looking peaceful, and perfect. Erase the Grandma's and Grandpa's, Aunts and Uncles. Anyone you think could possibly be dead. Now picture your best friend lying in the coffin. In the book " Wintergirls" Lia is devastated to know that not only has she lost her best friend Cassie, but she has lost everything that held her together.
When good friends come around you try not to let them go. Cassie and Lia are great friends in the book "Wintergirls". They are ambitious to strangers but cocky when they are around each other. Therefore they must lead the perfect life. WRONG; they have serious problems they just can't seem to overcome. This disease that they carry is called anorexia where you don't eat; and sometimes even take pills and overdoses. Some may think it is easy to get over. Though this disease can lead to killings and even overdose that cause funerals and realities that burst into nothing good.
Living is a simple word. It means life on this planet that we call Earth. Most can't wait till they are eighteen and off to college; while other wish they were five once again. Now picture wanting to die. To kill yourself in front of no one, someone , anyone, everyone. The questions that go through people's minds when they hear about a death/suicide is why they did what they did; and was it to overcome something or for pure not wanting to live anymore? Cassie died of pure overdose while Lia was in it for wanting to die then and there. She had lost her best friend in the entire world and she couldn’t bring her back to life. Sure; Lia could see Cassie as a ghost sometime but Lia found it just wasn't worth living. Though Lia faces hardships some teens go through each day her recovery is amazing.
In " Wintergirls", we learn what marital issues and deaths can do to people each day. Does this mean that whenever we feel fat or need support we should stop eating? Does this mean that starving ourselves is the only way to go? Of course not, for most of us. The most common age for eating disorders in 13 to 17. These are the teenage year that count the most. But we all plan our own futures so what we plan is up to us.
The missing child
Shadows here and shadows there
Shadows are filling the air
I'm scared and hungry but I just can't help
The way that I said I would always cope well
I was seven and ugly with short dark hair
We were living in the streets and I couldn't help but stare
My mother was walking across the rode when a car hits her side and she fell to the ground
Police were everywhere and I was standing on the sidewalk
People were rushing and I was standing on the sidewalk
The ambulance wailed and people dispersed but I was still standing on the sidewalk
My mother never came back to get me
I waited for days and days
No one ever found me; no one even cared
Her daughter was still standing there waiting
Shadows are here and shadows are there
Shadows are filling the air
I'm scared and hungry and I just can't help
The way I said I would always cope well
No matter what anyone tells you
You can't trust a human being
They will break you heart and tear it in two
Until you are desperately crying
I walked along the streets that night
Inside a house was a family of four
I snuck up to the house and I peeked inside the window
Inside that window was my mom with two daughters and a husband to love her
I cried that night inside my cave
I wanted to be my mom's daughter
What could I say and what could I do
To change my life for the better
Shadows are hear, shadows are there
Shadow are filing the air
I'm scared and I'm hungry and I just can't help
The way that I said I would always cope well
